Week 30

I can't keep it straight anymore. I'm pretty sure I told a couple people I was 32 weeks along recently. Oh well...

These days, I'm feeling more rolls than kicks from the boy. I'll be laying in bed and I can see some part of him move across my belly. It's kind of freaky. The weirdest part for me is being able to fell him right there. He's so close to us physically and so close to being ready for us to see him. Apparently, all of his sense have developed by this point. I find it incredible that he could most likely survive if he was delivered now. God has such an incredible way of creating. This whole process of pregnancy has only shown me more of God's perfect design in everything we do. And how crazy is it that an entire human being is being made right now in my belly!?! No machines, no medicine, no crazy lab experiments. It boggles my mind. I can't wait to hold my son and spend time with this new incredible creation.

The idea of Motherhood can be so overwhelming. I saw a quote the other day from Saint Augustine: "If I am Thy child, O God, it is because Thou gavest me such a mother." This makes me stop and think for quite a while about how motherhood isn't just about keeping the kid safe and sound until he's on his own; it's about raising up a new apologist for God. This person that you love and scold and kiss and discipline and teach is going to be a living example of God's word in your life. What a great burden that could be. What an incredible goal and challenge and lifelong task it actually is. I cannot wait to see how God uses my life to shape my son's and how God non-stop sanctifies me through the process.